there's nothing worse than knowing you had something so great, so beautiful. we were so good for each other, we worked well. and now.. just like that.. it's gone, at the drop of a pin. my whole life has to be rewritten with an ending more sad, my life will become a requiem. its so hard for me to be strong right now. i'm barely holding on and i'm thinking about letting go. i don't know how to handle any of this, but all i know is that my heart wants to explode, flee from my temple, and flake into stars across the night sky.

i suppose you're never fully ready for what's about to happen next. if you were, it'd never be a surprise. i'm super overwhelmed and taken back by everything that's happened. i never imagined a pain such as this, nor a love that just fades like the sunset. i never imagined losing the one thing i've always been searching for, in an instant, a drop of a dime. since i could remember, i've been wronged and i've been wrong my whole life and for once, it felt good to be right, to feel right. i felt good, i was loved. it's something i've never experienced, i've never been happy, for as long as i've lived. i'm just so good at being lost, at being broken, this only seems natural. i got what i deserved, this has been building and building from all the hearts i've broken. it's only fair that mine would break too. the most tragic of tragedys.. give me the poison, i want to drink it too, juliet.