Constantly I tell myself that I'm going to change, I'm going to become a better person.. But the harder I try, the more and more I'm pushed back to where I started. And I don't get it, usually when someone wants something so bad, they'll work to get it, but I see myself working harder and harder but the end always turns out the same.. was I just meant to stay like this forever? It's like I'm trapped in a box, a Megan-box. Outside of the box is change, but inside I'm just stuck, no ladder, no help whatsoever. I'm just trapped. And it's days like these that I wish I were trapped with you, because whenever I'm with you I'm not trapped, I'm free.. free to love you.