and it's weird. i feel empty, alone.. everything seems askew. i don't like it, not one bit. one thing is for sure, i'm annoyed and it's taking me so much energy to remain calm, but i can't handle it anymore. i can't live like that.. not for very much longer at least. in all honesty, i just want to talk to someone. and i want that someone to listen, not to give me advice, just listen and acknowledge my feelings and thoughts. this is my heart in words..