Maybe you've noticed that it's been a while, but to be honest I wasn't really ready until now. For a while nothing was worth sharing, nothing was worth feeling. But, it's been building and building and finally it's time.

I HATE UNPACKING! So I haven't unpacked since I got back on Sunday.. GET OFF THIS! I had more important things to do ;)

Saturday is coming up pretty quick, and you know what that means.. WHEEL.. OF.. FORTUNE audition! I am stoked out of my mind, I just HAVE to get on that show!!

I went out driving trying to clear my head, I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left, I guess I'm feeling a little tired of this, and ohhh the baggage that seems to still exist, it seems the only blessing i have left to my name is not knowing what we could have been.. what we should have been.

if had known that would be the last time i would see you, i wouldn't have said goodbye...

So am I still waiting for this world to stop hating? Can't find a good reason, can't find hope to believe in.

it's all sad to me. tears are all i have to feel, and pain is all i have to cry. i love you, love you with all my heart. i couldn't have asked for anything better than you.. you'll always be with me.

well i don't know what to say because there's truth to what you say i know it kills you i'm this way there's something different every day not easy living in my mind a little peace is hard to find my every thought is undermined by all the history inside i know i hear the words you said over and over again i just can't get them through my head there's just too many voices must be like living with the dead waiting for me to begin to do the things i have said and for this i'm sorry so there's some truth to what you say

could i be that i never had the chance to grow inside? could it be that my habit is to find a place to hide? could it be that sometimes i say things just to disagree? could it be that i'm only being me?

Today is yet another perfect day in the city. I think today will be the first day that I don't visit the beach. Yesterday and the day before at the beach was just fabulous. Both days we watched the sunset, que romantica! Those were the times I wish I was there with someone.. making out.. haha. Playing in the waves though, definitely one of my favorite things to do.

Today, although it's my longest day, has gone by relatively quick.. It's also MiHye's birthday -- BIG 20! Now that's just insane. I can barely contain my sanity.

I'm feeling gay today, more than usual. I just put a picture of Janet on my background, and it's kinda hot. Actually, it is very hot. And now Britney is on my AOL background, hmm.. what's going on here?!

OH YEAH.. I cut my hair yesterday, finally. It was very random, even though I had been wanting to cut my hair for some time now, but I wasn't planning on cutting it until the summer, but the warm weather and happiness in the sky put me in a mood.. a hair cutting mood, so I cut it. It's crazy-cute though, at least I think so, and that's all that matters, right?

For some reason, I'm in a homework mood. That or vaccuuming, it's like I'm going through spring cleaning. I already rearranged my desk and cleaned up my bed and MiHye's bed. I gotta get outta here!

and it's weird. i feel empty, alone.. everything seems askew. i don't like it, not one bit. one thing is for sure, i'm annoyed and it's taking me so much energy to remain calm, but i can't handle it anymore. i can't live like that.. not for very much longer at least. in all honesty, i just want to talk to someone. and i want that someone to listen, not to give me advice, just listen and acknowledge my feelings and thoughts. this is my heart in words..

In this world sometimes the only thing that's real is the way you make me feel.

i'm so glad that the truth has brought back together me and you..