[today was gonna be the day..]


i always feel like i'm waiting, every day it's different. like a disease. taking over my mind, my body, my soul. it's eating me alive; all this anxiety and stress over what? nothing ever happens, nothing ever changes and if it does, it's always within my own control. so why am i wasting my time just waiting around. i'm not sure if i'll ever figure out what i'm waiting for, but everything i could ever hope for, i already have.

at times, when i feel closer to my true self, those are also the times when i feel the most afar.

i think that if life were about konfusion and misunderstandings, learning and growing, then i'd be in first place. but this sick, sick world revolves around money and unfortunately my salary cannot support my life for much longer. so do i just play this game, in a money driven society?