it's been a while since i've had a story to tell, so here it is..

the other day my mom called me up and was like.. "bitch listen, remember that 100 bucks i found and no one claimed a couple weeks back? well something lucky happened to me today. i found a bunch of old lottery tickets and i cashed them in for 90 bucks!!" first of all, why do i care if you win money? it's not like you're going to share it with me. secondly, why rub it in my face when you know you could kindly give me the money since you love me so fuckin much?

well, today i received some mail and ::SURPRISE, SURPRISE:: it was from my mommy. i asked myself, "gee, what could this be?" kerry was chillin in my blue recliner and replied, "hey, maybe it's money." it could've been money, but then i got a grip on reality and remembered it was from my parents, so most likely it wouldn't be money. so i ripped it open and what did i find..?

L O T T E R Y T I C K E T S !

i about screamed at the top of my lungs, and kerry was pretty excited for me too.. until i looked at the note my mom wrote me. "i thought you could use these coupons" so, i read the tickets, and they were for free games of bowling.. BOWLING, i know! what a fuckin tease and what a mean, mean trick to play on your daughter. i have to admit, mom, you got me good bitch.

i can't explain it to anyone cause you're the only one who understands..

and if someone asked, i'd tell them my heart hurts because of you. because when your heart hurts, i can't allow myself to smile.

just come on, let's get drunk, i'll fuckin drive us to the harbor. we'll wish on every star we fuckin see. you know what stars are, right?

so here we lie in this beautiful mess, tangled sheets and beads of sweat..

and it's so easy to forget the things that matter most in life. it's too fuckin easy to forget that it is the little things in life that make it all worth while. you will always be the light at the end of my tunnel, no matter how often we don't talk, or how far apart we live.. i've saved a piece of my heart and dedicated it to you.

and we're gonna stay eighteen forever, so we can stay like this forever. and we'll never miss a party cause we keep them going constantly. and we'll never have to listen to anyone about anything, cause it's all been done and it's all been said, we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get.

you'll always be my konstantine.