"you remind me of the times when i knew who i was"

it's funny that once you don't have anything holding you back, you have the world in your hands.. no school, no work (yet), no real reservations other than to get drunk, sleep late, live your fuckin life.

it amazes me to see how people change from the slightest, well.. anything. we graduated two years ago, two fuckin years ago, and where is everyone now? maybe serving time, still at home, or even being that college student that's stereotyped so often. the people that you once knew are so different now, just as you are. if you realize it or not, your world has changed dramatically, along with the people inside. "here i am, pouring my heart onto these rooftops." i'm turning twenty, and although that isn't that old, i'm beginning to reflect on things that happened three years ago, only three fuckin years ago. beginning in first grade, all i wanted was to grow up. but now that i'm almost "grown up" (well, legally at least) i don't want to anymore. being a kid was so stressless, so worry-free. the older you get, the more responsibility you get.. FUCK THAT. maybe i use my knees as an excuse, i could've blown this town away. maybe that wasn't my destiny, but maybe it was? "i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not." i don't belong at home anymore, it's just a feeling you get.. like how do you know when you've become a "woman" or a "man".. you don't know, just one day you realize this is how it's going to be from here on. "i've made my mark in an ocean of stars now fading."