I'm sad, knowing that you're leaving. I won't be able to talk to you like I used to. I'm going to miss you, more than you'll ever know.

See I don't know if I can handle you as just a friend, aww baby I can't pretend, aww baby I'm so far in. But I don't mind as long as I can have you in my life, aww baby I'm satisfied even if you're not just mine.

The truth is that it's all just a lie that you believe..

It kinda sucks when you're having a shitty day, and I mean SHITTY, and then when you think that things are starting to look up, your car dies and you have to wait on the side of the road for a tow truck to tow you back to your house at 11 at night. But hey, who said anything about being bitter?

Luckily, life goes on, today is a new day.. and a glorious one it is. I'm having a really good hair day, which is just fuckin fabulous :) I'm getting that deck in my car while I go to a party, how fuckin sweet is that? I'm going back to SF tomorrow, which will be great because 1. It's not hot there, 2. there's liquor just waiting for me, and also some bud, 3. I miss it, I miss everyone. Good thing my car died while I was in town and not on my way to San Francisco. Welp, life is swell, once again.. I can't get over my hair!! BTW, don't eat yellow snow.

Packing and unpacking is a bitch. New phones are always nice. It's cool when people call you back too, that's fuckin fabulous. Anyway, this means nothing. Just let it go. Peace.

I don't know why I didn't think this was silly in the first place.. Think about it.. you write things on here so people can read about you, get to know you, right? It's a little retarded though because first of all, you don't know who is reading this shit, and secondly.. if they really want to know how your day went, why not ask? Everything is becoming so technological these days, what happened to the old fasion way of doing things? Just ask. Maybe I'm not too down with the sickness cause EVERYONE has a fuckin journal they type in. Doesn't this all seem weird to anyone else?

1. It's Cinco de Mayo, of course I'm in a good mood, I'm SURE you can guess why :) 2. I had a fabulous nap today, it's been sooo long. 3. The OC season finale is on tonight and by the time it's over, Adam will be back. 4. I surprisingly got all my shit done before 4:30. 5. No class tomorrow for advising day. 6. Did I mention that it's Cinco de Mayo?

To be honest, I'm looking for love, but I think I'm looking in all the wrong places.

Lately all I've REALLY been thinking is: LIFE GOES ON.. and thank goodness for that.

I have been re-evaluating my situations with all of my friends and I've come to the conclusion that you're the closest one to me right now.. and I wouldn't change that for anything. I enjoy your company, talking to you when you're asleep (even though I don't like waking you up), and riding with you in your car.. I like your friends and I hope that they like me. You're one of the coolest people I've met in a long time and I think I appreciate you sooooooooo much because we're so similar and we can relate on so many different subjects. Anyway, thanks for being the person that you and thanks for coming into my life.. I dunno what I'd do without you :) I love you kid.. in a good way!

So, I have a problem. This "friend" I have likes to only be friends when it's convenient for her. This obviously doesn't settle well with me. First of all, friendships shouldn't be just whenever you have a free moment, they should be unconditional, am I right? Of course I am. Secondly, I was talking with this "friend" and they claimed that things would be better when we moved back home for summer because we'd have more time to hang out. Maybe that's true, but it doesn't excuse the fact that she never calls me back, or the fact that we can still hang out once in a while in the city. It doesn't make sense that I ALWAYS have to go over there and it definitely doesn't make sense that she has a car and claims "I'll go over there all the time once I have my car" So, should I not be bitter? I think not. I mean, I love you, but things have got to change.. honestly.